I am sorry that my past is bad.

I am sorry that you sometimes have to see me sad.

I am sorry that I lied to you because I compared you to my past.

I was just scared that you will judge me and won’t love me, then we won’t last.

I am sorry you don’t understand.

But alone you never stand.

So you can’t understand; The pain nor feel.

But I wish you can see what’s real.

Look at me and see me.

Not the person my past made me be.

My actions.

They were just reactions.

I am not proud.

Especially when I have a crowd.

I lost the old me with the pain.

And now it’s haunting me with the rain.

I have been strong for too long.

And since I had no one I did wrong.

I was stupid yes.

So I deserve this I guess.

I just wish you can understand and believe.

And explain to me why you didn’t leave.

I promise I only lied once and it was a mistake.

Because now I’m 100% sure you’re real and not a fake.

I never had anyone I can trust with everything that’s why I lied.

And it hurts that you don’t understand that because now the trust you had for me has died.

I am sorry; I love you.

And I didn’t want to lose you.

I am as honest as I can be.

But with this I just had to hide the fake me.

Because I wanted you to love the real me.

And not know the old me.

-Violet Marie

Myself, who stood strong and fought all the obstacles that came my way.

Who finally stood up to people that always had something to say.

For being myself and learning from my mistakes.

And waking up every morning to another nightmare, but still smiling, that’s all it takes.

I say Thank You, For always being you.

-Violet Marie.

Go Away; Go Away, you’re consuming my head.

Every second I breathe, more and more I go insane.

Stuck in my mind forever, the words that are said.

It drives me deeper than my sleep, and deeper than my bed.

Oh Why, Oh Why was I cursed with this pain?

Go Away; Go Away, you’re consuming my head.

Making it spin, going to the dark side, and wishing I were dead.

The more I stress, the more I gain.

Stuck in my mind forever, the words that are said.

Oh Why couldn’t you just bother someone else instead?

Now the heart I hold has a stain.

Go Away; Go Away, you’re consuming my head.

Perplexed about life, Perplexed about me, is making me mislead.

My heart stops, opens, gets hurt, and keeps going like a train.

Stuck in my mind forever, the words that are said.

Read my heart that has not been read.

For it will reveal who’s to blame.

Go Away; Go Away, you’re consuming my head.

Stuck in my mind forever, the words that are said.

-Violet Marie.

All I Want is for the one I love more than I love myself, to respect me, to say sorry for all the hurt one put on me, all the pain one forced out of me and all the tears one sucked out of me. Then to never do those things again.

To never make me feel weak.

Or try to make me feel like I need to take a peek.

To never make me feel like I’m not good enough for one to love.

And to make me always be above.

For one to feel the way I feel like missing one all the time.

And to say “she will always be mine.”

To never pay mind to no other girl but me.

So I won’t have nightmares of one hurting me.

For one to open up and talk.

So then maybe we both together can continue to walk.

For one to understand.

And to appreciate that here I still stand.

I just want things to get better, that is All I Want.

-Violet Marie

I’m saying this because, on tumblr, people go in on fat people, especially, and I’m getting tired of seeing such things like wtf you don’t know what they have you don’t know if they have some type of thing that they gain a lot more weight then normal people do, you know shit about their life, and you don’t know what the fuck they’re going through, but yet you sit there and just make it worse by throwing hurtful words at them and thats why people commit suicide. This society is so fucked up. This society tells you that skinny is beautiful and thats it what about the rest of us? we arent beautiful? That’s why so many people especially girls are insecure about their bodies because of society and because of ignorant people like you. People think they have the right to say hurtful things because of society. Like do you see people saying “eww your skinny” no they say “eww your fat” “eww your gay” “eww your stupid” “eww your ugly” It pisses me the fuck off.

So here is my message to every single one of you fuckers, you should be ashamed and you should just go die.

and for the people that get made fun of, brush it off and don’t pay mind to these fuckers, you are beautiful the way you are and don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise Because skinny isn’t the only Beautiful.

-Violet Marie.

What is Pain? Pain is the innocence being forced away from your body, hopeless, weak. Making you choke when you are trying to speak; Pain What is Pain? Pain is parents abandoning their children, making them feel unwanted, unloved. Unloved by the ones that matter; Pain What is Pain? Pain is not knowing your identity. Fighting with yourself; trying to figure out who you are, while people just stand there and judge. Getting frustrated because you don’t know if what they are saying is really true, because you don’t even know who is you; Pain What is Pain? Pain is the nasty things that are said and done. By nasty people who believe it’s fun; Pain What is Pain? Pain is the stab in the back, the stab in the heart, by a lover or a friend. Feeling like it’s the end, of your life; Pain What is Pain? Pain is loving someone more than they love you. Your ears, your eyes, witnessing their words, their actions. It just cuts deeper and deeper into your heart and into your brain. The aching, the throbbing, the sleepless nights; Pain What is Pain? Pain is being deeply in love that they are the only thing that matters. Giving your all and at the end they leave or hurt you and your heart shatters. Feeling that horrible sharp pain, like if someone just put their hands inside your body and ripped your heart, fighting; forcing it out your body. Then all you want is to end your life because you can’t see it with no other human body; Pain What is Pain? Pain is people not believing in you, especially the ones you love. Your parents laughing at your dreams, “Hahahahahahaha.” They don’t care about you, that’s what it seems. Pain What is Pain? Pain is someone trying to control your life, causing you not to have one. Not having friends or any fun. You then feel alone. But that’s the effect to every Pain. What is Pain? Pain is seeing the person you gave your heart too, giving others attention, disrespecting. Letting them hurt you while you do nothing. Going crazy, watching that monster enjoy watching you suffer, in Pain. Feeding them the begs, the sound of your hurt voice and tears, While they keep knocking you down, laughing and whispering bad things in your ears; Pain What is Pain? Pain is watching someone you love die. Hoping that what you just witnessed was a lie. That horrible image stuck in your mind for good. Knowing you will never see them again when you should. Love isn’t suppose to be bad. So why do we feel so sad? Feeling like none of this is real. Oh but it is because you feel; Pain What is Pain? Pain is abuse, starting off with the most powerful one, Verbal. “You fat ugly stupid hairy piece of shit. Just admit. You are a worthless dirty whore, who goes back to guys for more. That’s why no one likes you. You’re fat you can’t do what you want to do. You aren’t good enough. Pussy stop trying to act tough, Just die.” Pain. Words feeding your body. “You’re Stupid!” The more it eats the weaker it gets. “You’re Fat!” Targeting your brain and your heart. Attacking with all the words. “You’re not good enough!” hoping it sets, right there; Pain What is Pain? Pain is when it then turns into physical abuse, the words destroyed your mind; your soul. “Punish me! End my life!” Pain. Now you are feeling the beautiful sharp knife cutting into your wrist. All because your heart has been destroyed with a verbal fist. Now your mind, Isn’t so kind; Pain. Watching your skin rip, watching your blood drop down to your fingertip. Every drop of blood is for every word that was said. Being release from your body and head. Hoping the physical damage will soon just end, the horrible place inside. So then no more will you have to hide; Pain. When someone lays their hands on you to see you fall in a puddle of weak. Giving them all your strength, Power is what they seek; Pain What is Pain? Pain is when you can’t take it anymore; Insane. Humans are endangered, starting off with your name. Suicide; the only answer when you don’t longer want to hide; Pain. *Puts the gun to the head and pulls the trigger.*

-Violet Marie.

-Violet Marie

Thank you for always being my Best Friend. You always understand me and never judge me, and I can never forget you are always there for me. You have been there for me through thick and thin and I know you will always be, forever and ever. So you are in my heart forever, because you are the only one that hasn’t broke my heart and left me. You are actually the one that makes me feel better. I love you.

Sincerely Violet Marie.

-Violet Marie.

Where is the one in Love, The I in We?

Alone is not how it’s suppose to Be.

We Belong.

Correct me if I’m Wrong.

You complete my Puzzle.

The one that my heart chose to Nuzzle.

I have two pairs of basically everything, eyes, ears, hands, Feet.

But I only have one heart, yours is the missing one, and one lips, which is waiting for yours to Meet.

You swept me off the Ground.

So now I need you to stick Around.

You are my Drug.

Forever, I want to Hug.

The dryness to my Tears.

The overcome to my Fears.

The painkillers to my Pain.

The sunshine to my Rain.

The smile to my Sadness.

And the happy to my Madness.

People may not Understand.

But together we still Stand.

Holding each others Hand.

Owning each others Land.

We can’t be Broken.

Because our hearts has already been Spoken.

-Violet Marie.

Every tear that falls from my cheek.

Is another story you’ll have to seek.

All the pain inside.

I smile to hide.

Knowing that everyone is watching every move I take.

This horrible dream that I’m trying to awake.

Trying not to show my face.

Trying to make it to home base.

Where I am safe and sound.

Where there is no one around.

Just me, myself and I, the three people I only trust.

And everyone else can all just fall to dust.

-Violet Marie.

I wish I may, I wish I might.

Go to the bay, And find my knight.

Take me away, Away from the night.

Ask me to stay, And home me tight.

I wish I may, I wish I might.

Be the way, And the right.

Beauty of the day, And beauty of the night.

Bed we lay, For hours we fight.

I wish I may, I wish I might.

In the day, We’ll have a bite.

Come my way, We’ll find a sight.

Then he’ll say, He found the light.

I wish I may, I wish I might.

Together we stay, Forever so tight.

The dress I pay, The beauty is white.

Then he’ll say, He has the light.

-Violet Marie

-Violet Marie.