I am Sorry
I am sorry that my past is bad.
I am sorry that you sometimes have to see me sad.
I am sorry that I lied to you because I compared you to my past.
I was just scared that you will judge me and won’t love me, then we won’t last.
I am sorry you don’t understand.
But alone you never stand.
So you can’t understand; The pain nor feel.
But I wish you can see what’s real.
Look at me and see me.
Not the person my past made me be.
They were just reactions.
I am not proud.
Especially when I have a crowd.
I lost the old me with the pain.
And now it’s haunting me with the rain.
I have been strong for too long.
And since I had no one I did wrong.
I was stupid yes.
So I deserve this I guess.
I just wish you can understand and believe.
And explain to me why you didn’t leave.
I promise I only lied once and it was a mistake.
Because now I’m 100% sure you’re real and not a fake.
I never had anyone I can trust with everything that’s why I lied.
And it hurts that you don’t understand that because now the trust you had for me has died.
I am sorry; I love you.
And I didn’t want to lose you.
I am as honest as I can be.
But with this I just had to hide the fake me.
Because I wanted you to love the real me.
And not know the old me.